silent all these years

what's so amazing about really deep thoughts?

boy you best pray that I bleed real soon.

how's that thought for you?

my scream got lost in a paper cup.

you think there's a heaven -

where some screams have gone?

I got 25 bucks and a cracker -

do you think it's enough?

to get us there

cause what if I'm a mermaid

in these jeans of his

with her name still on it?

hey but I don't care.

cause sometimes,

I said sometimes,

I hear my voice -

and it's been here.

Silent All These Years...

years go by

will I still be waiting?

for somebody else to understand.

years go by

if I'm stripped of my beauty

and the orange clouds

raining in head.

years go by

will I choke on my tears

till finally there is nothing left?

one more casualty

you know we're too easy, easy, easy...

well I love the way we communicate

your eyes focus on my funny lip shape.

let's hear what you think of me now -

but baby don't look up

the sky is falling.

~tori amos

perfect girl

paperdolls
we all
go
down
like dominoes

when i become

just
like
them

empty
perfect shape
touch
my
hair
my
lips
my
manicured
hands

i am perfect

because
i
can be

until you see me

standing
by
myself

i am taken by the wind
taken down

i am perfect

i look perfect

but i am nothing

inside
me

a paperdoll

wasteland

words never said.
haunting echoes.
past wasted.
move beyond.
move away.
never good,
as it was.
never again.
move away.

protect me.
help me.

don't hurt me.

move away.

words unsaid.

remember

remember this moment.
right here, right now.
my caress on your face,
my kiss on your brow.
remember the lullabyes,
and the soft angel wings,
the cradle of my arms,
where i hold you to sing.


remember the times,
you brought a sparkle to my eye,
remember that sparkle,
remember that sigh.
hold tight to the sounds,
the laughter of your acts,
when the sands of time fall,
it all goes too fast.

settle

settle this,
inspite of you.
wake,
to the light.
look around,

preoccupied.

can't ignore,

to find.

lower expectations.

lessen your fall.

settle this.

inspite it all.

you.

need it.

you're beautiful...

and needed.

want it.

settle this.

settle you.